"And I will do whatever you ask in my name so that the son may bring glory to the father. You may ask me for anything in my name and I will do it." John 13-14
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9
"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of Joy" Psalm 126:5
"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer believe that you have received it and it will be yours." Mark 11:24
"...As you help us with our prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many." 2 Corinthians 1:11
"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and It will be given to you. This is to my father's glory, that you bear much fruit showing yourselves to be my disciples." John 15: 7-8
" I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know I am the Lord, God of Isreal, who summons you by name." Isaiah 45:3
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
DNA Update
Well as of today the supposed birth father has not taken his part of the DNA test. The judge ordered it be done by April 26th. We just found out yesterday that we have to share the cost of the DNA test with this fool. the total cost is 490$. We had to pay $100 to schedule our part of the test. The DNA swab for Kellen is this Thursday at 2:30. Get this, the lab doing the test is DNA Diagnostics. They call each party and schedule your appt (but you have to put money down in order to schedule), they tell you the location options you have based on your zip code to do the swab. The clinic I get to visit with Kellen is called "Who's Your Daddy DNA?" I just laughed on the phone and said "Are you serious? That is the name of the clinic?" She said "yep, uhuh." as if it was weird I was asking her. I responded with "wow, how Ghetto is that." No response from the representative. So, this will be a treat.
I am very nervous. I seem to be ok, when we don't hear anything but then I get nervous everytime this issue comes up, and I get really sick to my stomach.
One thing that is starting to make us mad is that the information we are told always seems to be changing. For example, we were told by our attorneys that he would have to pay for it, well I guess the judge deemed that unfair because she ordered we pay half. Our attorneys have us taking the swab and being pro-active so that we can show in court we have done everything timely etc.
Hopefully, this guy will take the test and not be the dad, or he will just not show up to the next hearing and we will be done with this mess. One thing I pray does not happen is that this guy shows up and says he cannot afford to pay for the test because if that happens she will most likely delay the hearing until he can afford it. I am believing God for the promises I have received through the bible that this will all work out in the end. I have to believe it. It feels like Kellen is supposed to be with us and God can work miracles. I have to keep remembering the verses that I have read and studied while praying for this situation. It may seem like I am being unrealistic but I would rather be unrealistic and have HOPE than to be realistic and logical and in despair with no hope. I have to remember this is not over YET.
Psalm 37:4 - "Delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Matthew 9:29 - "...According to your faith it will be done to you."
Hebrews 11:6 - "His incomparably great power for those who believe is like the inner workings of his mighty strength.
Psalm 77:14 - "You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples."
2 Corinthians 1:10-11 "On him we have set our hope that HE will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers."
Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:13 - " For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear, I will help you."
James 1:6 - "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt. Because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed into the wind."
Num 14:17 - "Now may the Lord's strength be displayed, just as you have declared."
I know everyone is probably tired of hearing about all this and I just want you to know there will be a day when this is all over and at that point I promise my posts will be more joyful. Right now I am just trying to spend as much time with my drooling little monkey as possible.
Thanks for all the prayers, thoughts and words of encouragement. Times like this really reveal who your friends are and I thank God for each and everyone of you. I also thank the Lord for those in the body of Christ who don't even know me, who are sending me e-mails to let me know that they are praying for me or have asked someone else they know to pray for us. It is very difficult for me to rely on other people to make it through tough times and clearly this is a lesson the lord is trying to teach me. As a body, we should be lifting each other up at all times and remember that though there are various Bible believing Christian denominations, we all serve the same Lord and have the same Holy Spirit (triune God) to work on our behalf.
Bless you all.
I am very nervous. I seem to be ok, when we don't hear anything but then I get nervous everytime this issue comes up, and I get really sick to my stomach.
One thing that is starting to make us mad is that the information we are told always seems to be changing. For example, we were told by our attorneys that he would have to pay for it, well I guess the judge deemed that unfair because she ordered we pay half. Our attorneys have us taking the swab and being pro-active so that we can show in court we have done everything timely etc.
Hopefully, this guy will take the test and not be the dad, or he will just not show up to the next hearing and we will be done with this mess. One thing I pray does not happen is that this guy shows up and says he cannot afford to pay for the test because if that happens she will most likely delay the hearing until he can afford it. I am believing God for the promises I have received through the bible that this will all work out in the end. I have to believe it. It feels like Kellen is supposed to be with us and God can work miracles. I have to keep remembering the verses that I have read and studied while praying for this situation. It may seem like I am being unrealistic but I would rather be unrealistic and have HOPE than to be realistic and logical and in despair with no hope. I have to remember this is not over YET.
Psalm 37:4 - "Delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Matthew 9:29 - "...According to your faith it will be done to you."
Hebrews 11:6 - "His incomparably great power for those who believe is like the inner workings of his mighty strength.
Psalm 77:14 - "You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the peoples."
2 Corinthians 1:10-11 "On him we have set our hope that HE will continue to deliver us, as you help us by your prayers."
Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:13 - " For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear, I will help you."
James 1:6 - "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt. Because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed into the wind."
Num 14:17 - "Now may the Lord's strength be displayed, just as you have declared."
I know everyone is probably tired of hearing about all this and I just want you to know there will be a day when this is all over and at that point I promise my posts will be more joyful. Right now I am just trying to spend as much time with my drooling little monkey as possible.
Thanks for all the prayers, thoughts and words of encouragement. Times like this really reveal who your friends are and I thank God for each and everyone of you. I also thank the Lord for those in the body of Christ who don't even know me, who are sending me e-mails to let me know that they are praying for me or have asked someone else they know to pray for us. It is very difficult for me to rely on other people to make it through tough times and clearly this is a lesson the lord is trying to teach me. As a body, we should be lifting each other up at all times and remember that though there are various Bible believing Christian denominations, we all serve the same Lord and have the same Holy Spirit (triune God) to work on our behalf.
Bless you all.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
The Never Ending Saga - The Dude Showed Up
I am sure everyone knows by now that the last hearing was on March 1. We were praying that since the alleged father did not show up for the February hearing he would not show up for the second.
Unfortunately he showed up. The Judge asked him why he didn't make the first hearing since he is the one contesting the adoption, he said because he works nights. Good excuse. My question is if you can't make a court hearing how the hell are you going to take care of a baby if you work nights?! Anyway, the judge has now given him until April 26 to take the DNA test. I am guessing, based on the way this dude operates, that we are going to know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING UNTIL APRIL 26!
I am not handling this very well at all. I cannot believe it has gotten to this point and that I may lose my child. Can you imagine losing your son or daughter forever?! Some people seem to think that it shouldn't be life altering given that he is adopted. That is just crazy to me. He has been with us since 24 hours after birth. He only knows us. Can you imagine what this will be like for him if he goes to a crappy home in which the person providing for him can barely feed him. Kellen is on a routine and it breaks my heart to think of how this would be for him.
I am trying to not dwell on the negative, but until you have been in a position of constant struggle to bring a child into your life and then out of no-where, once you finally think you have made it over the peak of the mountain, have the potential of someone taking your child from you - it is hard to explain that...positive/negative doesn't matter. What matters is sheer strength to make it one more day, one more hour, one more minute. I so desperately want to move on from adoption. I realize it will always be apart of my life, but I am so needing this chapter of our life to end. All I can pray for is that the DNA doesn't match.
Please God! Please do not let the DNA match. I have no idea how I will survive if it is a match and Kellen has to leave us.
Unfortunately he showed up. The Judge asked him why he didn't make the first hearing since he is the one contesting the adoption, he said because he works nights. Good excuse. My question is if you can't make a court hearing how the hell are you going to take care of a baby if you work nights?! Anyway, the judge has now given him until April 26 to take the DNA test. I am guessing, based on the way this dude operates, that we are going to know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING UNTIL APRIL 26!
I am not handling this very well at all. I cannot believe it has gotten to this point and that I may lose my child. Can you imagine losing your son or daughter forever?! Some people seem to think that it shouldn't be life altering given that he is adopted. That is just crazy to me. He has been with us since 24 hours after birth. He only knows us. Can you imagine what this will be like for him if he goes to a crappy home in which the person providing for him can barely feed him. Kellen is on a routine and it breaks my heart to think of how this would be for him.
I am trying to not dwell on the negative, but until you have been in a position of constant struggle to bring a child into your life and then out of no-where, once you finally think you have made it over the peak of the mountain, have the potential of someone taking your child from you - it is hard to explain that...positive/negative doesn't matter. What matters is sheer strength to make it one more day, one more hour, one more minute. I so desperately want to move on from adoption. I realize it will always be apart of my life, but I am so needing this chapter of our life to end. All I can pray for is that the DNA doesn't match.
Please God! Please do not let the DNA match. I have no idea how I will survive if it is a match and Kellen has to leave us.
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