The birth father filed a petition. He wants to persue this. We do not know anything about this guy. He is willing to take the DNA test. If he passes the DNA test we lose Kellen. No fighting in court. He wins.
The only way we get to keep him is if he doesn't pass the test and tries to get custody in court. Well..why would someone who is not the dad want to fight for a baby that isn't his? Well, if he wins, he doesn't get the baby. The baby goes back to the mom. He doesn't get custody regardless.
I have no idea how to explain what I am feeling. I am faced with being logical and realistic which means we will be losing our child. It makes no sense for someone to agree to a DNA test if he isn't the father. How can we fight with someone we know nothing about. To say he is a loser is an assumption. She lied, so...what we know is he was dead and now he isn't.
After everything else we have been through....the pain, the difficulty - those emotions NEVER compared to the overwhelming loss, fear, anxiety, hopelessness and whatever other name you want to attach to it. Now we somehow have to muster the strength to get through this. I don't know if I can.
By the time we know I will have used all my leave which means even if we wanted to adopt again, I have no more time, we have spent so much money on this now and there is no way we will get any of it back. I mean....there are so many things wrong with this. We can't sue the agency, we can't sue anyone. If it happens it just happens and we have to let go.
Please tell me how?????????
Sarah, I am so so sorry you are going thru all of this. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything works out for you guys.
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